The Confrontation.

I should be breathing a sigh of relief; for years I’ve lived under this torment. This is very weird because torment is all I’ve received. The fact that it hurt me is proof that it was wrong but here I am feeling torn and how much feeling guilty for cutting this cord of control they’ve had over me. I guess this is why they are upset. I never gave them the heads up about what was about to come; that I was working on being loose for good.

I am writing this piece solely for those who are interested in knowing what goes on into the mind of the abused, how they become brainwashed into being servants to their abusers, twisted isn’t it?

Well it is, especially for someone who’s been abused their whole life by someone who was meant to protect them usually in the form of a parent. This makes it hard for society to fully support the abused because in retrospect, this shouldn’t be the case.

In my case I was strategic about how I was going to set myself loose. I have on numerous occasions addressed how I felt but each time I was met with excuses and even blame. So I had to accept that they aren’t willing for take responsibility for their actions. Taking responsibility isn’t just about accepting that one was at fault but it helps one to acknowledge that there is an issue, in this case a bad habit that needs to be worked on. You can’t ever fix what you don’t acknowledge. Unfortunately for them, not accepting their wrongs and the fact that they continued to abuse me, I was left with no choice but to choose me over them. It was either I sit and allow the abuse to continue digging me deep into the hole of emotional despair and risk psychiatric control or start working on my way out of this brainwash hole.

I have to mention brainwash because that’s what it is. There’s no way you can successfully abuse someone without brainwashing them, and that’s why it takes absolute bravery to stand up against oppression. It’s a war on not just winning your mind back, but going against the stereotypes and finally paving a new way of living without oppression of which it’s a process on its own because you’re going to question everything, you’ll be amazingly poor at making decisions because you’ve never had to before. You’ll downplay your worth, because anything with great value attached to your name is foreign to you, you’ll almost feel guilty of it.

Although this will feel as though your skin is being ripped off, just remember that this could be your entire life if you don’t challenge it.